My life, soundtrack and all :)

this is the closest you will come to understanding how my mind works :)

Friday, December 31, 2010

Last day of 2010!!!

Is anyone else SO ready for this year to be over???

Bad things that happened in 2010
-Friend of mine died
-My beloved kitty Clover, whom I've had since I was 2, died of oral cancer :(
R.I.P. Ryon and Clover. I miss both of you.
-Quite a few awkward encounters with a certain friend of mine (don't want to go into detail about it)
-My friend with the big fluffy hair decided to cut it so it's no longer big nor fluffy!!!
(I saw him last sunday and it was still big and fluffy.... Maybe he'll change his mind?)
-Lots of previously really close friends underwent drastic personality changes and became entirely different people.

A summary. Too depressing to continue.

To balance things out, I'll also make...

Good things that happened in 2010
-Lots of my friends may have changed, but I'm still pretty much the same.
-I discovered The Rocky Horror Picture Show.
-Some pretty decently catchy music was written (with the exception of Justin Beiber)
-Recieved massive boquet of flowers form a mysterious person on my birthday! I still have no clue who sent them...

I miss 2009. That was a great year.

Great things that happened in '09
-LEFT MIDDLE SCHOOL!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-Started high school at the BEST high school EVER!
-Met some really amazing people, including my friend with the big fluffy hair, a ton of the people who have now gone through a major personality change and are different but at the time they were awesome, my friend Zoe, the adorable Tommy, HANTHON!, and too many more to list!
-Last year with Ryon. Will remember it because of that, if for no other reason.
-Had first real boyfriend, first date, first slow dance, first hand-holding, first kiss, etc... ;)
-I quit biting my nails for the first time that year!!!! Since I have started and quit many more times, but this was the first year that I accomplished it :) I made it like three months too.
-Before I let said middle school, I beat the school record for "most digits of pi memorized" for the second year in a row, but this time I had DOUBLED the past record!!!! In 6th my math teacher told me that he had never seen a student go over 50, but on pi day I only made it to 48. SO CLOSE!!!! Then the next year I was in the 60s, and in 8th grade I made it to-wait for it-111!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I felt SO COOL!!!! My math teacher put my name up in the hall in front of his room for the rest of the year :)

AHAHAAHA!!! Yeah, that was a good year :)
I hope 2011 is as god as 2009 was...

How was everyone else's year?

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

He's a cold-hearted snake, look into his eyes...

that song is stuck in my head :P

Okay so I have had the craziest past 36 hours or so. My mom mad me go to some church lock-in thing (Never again. Never ever again going to one of those things.) at which I knew no one, and was the only one who slept at all (for a total of two hours, waking up every half hour or so). Was the least fun I have had in a long time. Plus, for some reason we ended up watching the movie Seven Pounds, which is massively depressing. Ended up going home and sleeping for about three hours before grandma came to pick me up. Went to grandmas house, got into fight over Asian food, and then turned on tv and crashed on her couch for the next 4 hours. Both of us pretended the fight had never happened. She drove me home, my mother (whom I love and get along with MUCH better than my grandma) brought me to Jamba Juice, and now I'm sitting at home, listening to music and drinking my Jamba Juice. Life is great when you're not at a church lock in. With 30 people you don't know.
I have my own version of a church lock-in which I find to be much more fun. It's kind of hard to explain, but it's in the spring, it's at a hotel, and I actually KNOW people and the people I don't know are willing to get to know other people, and you aren't obligated to stay up all night long (but most of us end up staying up 'till around 4 am anyway). And it's not FREEZING like that stupid church was.
Anyways, now I'm wide awake and starving so I'm gonna go eat. How was everyone else's night?

Sunday, December 26, 2010

he says she's no good with words, but I'm worse...

There's something wrong here.
My winter break is half over already.
I've done some mildly exciting things. I hung out with Jude, which is always fun; I performed two monologues; I got some wicked presents; today I hung out with my friend with the big fluffy hair (He hasn't cut his hair all short yet!!! It's still big and fluffy!!!!!!!!!); re-discovered some songs I haven't listened to in a while; and I spent like $35 on books today (gotta love gift cards!).
But I haven't once stayed out all night.

The longest I ever stayed out was when I was 14. Me and my friend went to the Forever The Sickest Kids concert, and unfortunately we didn't plan very well for our ride home because we ended up stuck in downtown, cold and hungry, till around 3:30 am. But sometime in the middle of that a Red Bull car showed up and started giving out free Red Bulls, so we got all psyched up on caffeine and that made us significantly less grumpy about the situation. Then we stopped at Taco Bell for dinner, and when we eventually did get back to her house (around 4:45) we decided we wanted to pull an all-nighter, so we had her bro take us on a snack run, and went to the park across the street from her house. We came home and fell asleep around 6.

The most recent case of staying out way too late was when I went to go see The Rocky Horror Picture Show at midnight with my friend Zoe. We got home around 2 and went to bed around 6:30 am.
But on winter break so far I have gotten to bed around midnight every night and woken up no later than nine.
What gives???????????????????
Well tonight I am determined to screw up my sleeping schedule. I will stay up till at least 2 reading one of my new books.
But I still won't be really doing anything of interest... sigh...
Actually I'm getting pretty tired... what time is it now?
Midnight. On the dot.
I can last at least another hour, right?
I will not waste this break by being responsible.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Ooooooooh, what's the fun in playing it safe?

I have...
-3 sketch books
-2 note books
-a bunch of new Gelly Rolls
-a gift certificate to an art supplies store
-My camera back
-...and no inspiration at all :P

I hate it when I'm not inspired to draw or write or do anything of that sort. It makes everything seem dismal and meaningless to me. Sigh...

Friday, December 24, 2010

And now for the down side...

The down side of christmas in my family: going to church.
Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against church. Well, except for the fact that my church is BEYOND boring.Well
But at the moment the problem is that my mom won't let me wear my new grinch pajamas and Snuggie to church (I had to take off the Snuggie!!! NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!) And she's making me wear the clothes my sisters grandma sent me for christmas *lightning crashes, dramatic music plays*
Here's the deal: My religion is quaker, even though I go to a methodist church (it's where my family goes and the quaker church isn't within walking distance of my house sadly).
That DOES NOT mean I have a desire to dress like how they portray quakers and other good-girl religious girls on TV.
Yet my sisters grandma doesn't seem to get that.
And my mom actually makes me wear the clothes she sends me.
Which basically means lots of beige.

Here's what I'm wearing to church:
*shudders*
So unflattering. So boring. Ugh.
On the bright side, right after church we're going to my grandmas house and my mom said I can leave my new Grinch pajamas and my snuggie in the car and change into them when we get to her house :)
Well I'm off to take pictures of stuff. Byes.

Did you write the book of love, and do you have faith in god above?

I know all the words to the song "Miss American pie" Which I am quite prod of because that song is like ten minutes long.

I love christmas so so much!!!!!!
-I found my camera that my sister had stolen, and then I found my cord that plugs it into the computer so I could get them off of my camera without my sister killing me for deleting the pictures she had taken (which were basically lots of pictures of our cats) So you can expect more pictures from me :D
-My friend with the big fluffy hair loved what I got for him!!!!! :D We were talking on the phone when he opened it so... yeah :D I'm extremely happy about that.
-$30 of itunes money :D
-new gelly roll pens!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-MY SNUGGIE IS AMAZING!!!!! I don't care that I look like a total dweeb, it's like the most comfortable thing ever :)
-I got a new watch so now I dont have to waste my ipod battery by turning it on every five seconds to check what time it is :)

I hope everyone else is having an excellent christmas too!!!!!!!!

100th post!/Merry Christmas


So guess what???
THIS IS MY 100TH POST!!!
But wait, there's more!!

It's also Christmas eve!!
My family opens presents on Christmas eve, then Santa comes on Christmas day :D
So here are a few of the amazing things I got:
-A PURPLE SNUGGIE from my mommy! (ILY MOM!)
-New headphones, also from my mom!!!
-A sock monkey (whom I STILL haven't found the perfect name for...) from Jude :)
-Every School House Rock ever made (HELLZ YEAH!)

Then later I'm going to my grandmas house where I will get presents from my other family members :)
Here's a pic of me wearing my snuggie, with my headphones and sock monkey (whom I might name patrick.... It was my auntie's imaginary friend when she was little, it's the actor who played Johnny Castle in dirty dancing, and I have a friend named patrick... hmmm...)

Merry Christmas everyone!!!!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Cyndi Lauper


this song makes me smile :)

every who down in whoville, the tall and the small, was singing with no presents at all :)

It came without ribbons!
It came without tags!
It came without packages, boxes or bags!!!!

"Maybe christmas" he thought, "doesn't come from the store.
Maybe christmas, perhaps, means a little bit more."

That was just on tv, and my pastor AND my grandma-both of whom talk A LOT-decided to call at that time!!!!!! grrrrr!!!!!

Well, for those of you who missed it on tv, here it is:


Needless to say, this is the ORIGINAL cartoon one, the GOOD one, NOT the Jim Carrey one!

And now here are they lyrics to the grinch song :)

You're A Mean One, Mr. Grinch

You're a mean one, Mister Grinch
You really are a heel,
You're as cuddly as a cactus, you're as charming as an eel, Mister Grinch,

You're a bad banana with a greasy black peel!



You're a monster, Mister Grinch,
Your heart's an empty hole,
Your brain is full of spiders, you've got garlic in your soul, Mister Grinch,

I wouldn't touch you with a thirty-nine-and-a-half foot pole!



You're a vile one, Mister Grinch,
You have termites in your smile,
You have all the tender sweetness of a seasick crocodile, Mister Grinch,

Given a choice between the two of you I'd take the ... seasick crocodile!



You nauseate me, Mister Grinch,
With a nauseous super "naus",
You're a crooked dirty jockey and you drive a crooked hoss, Mister Grinch,

You're a three decker sauerkraut and toadstool sandwich, with arsenic sauce!



You're a foul one, Mister Grinch,
You're a nasty wasty skunk,
Your heart is full of unwashed socks, your soul is full of gunk, Mister Grinch,

The three words that describe you are as follows, and I quote, "Stink, Stank, Stunk!"



You're a rotter, Mister Grinch,
You're the king of sinful sots,
Your heart's a dead tomato splotched with moldy purple spots, Mister Grinch,

Your soul is an appalling dump heap overflowing with the most disgraceful assortment of rubbish imaginable, mangled up in tangled up knots!


I am feeling SO christmas-y right now :)

first day of break!

okay so i tried to do a post about my last day before break, but then this site stopped working for me for no reason *mad face*
So, out of total boredon, I created a tumblr account.


so far I have nothing of much interest on it... mostly the random crap that spills out of my brain.
but who knows, it might become immensely interesting.

Well on my last day of break, I did not much of interest. I had to do push-ups for swearing, I watched several cheesy holiday movies, including one VERY politically incorrect one from the '50s, saw teachers in ugly holiday sweaters, ate 4 candy canes and countless pieces of chocolate, got free cookies, drew a "happy nondenominational winter holiday!" mural on a whiteboard, saw david bisbal lift up his shirt (then re-wound it and watched it again, at the request of a bunch of freshmen girls... listen to this song if you don't know who david bisbal is: Ave Maria by David Bisbal), came home to the fire alarm going off, meaning my mom was making a frozen pizza, napped for two hours, saw a guy who looks EXACTLY like Adam Brody, talked to guy I have mild crush on (haven't mentioned him on here yet) talked to friend with big fluffy hair, sang songs until about 1:30 am, went to sleep.
My first day of break will probably consist of me drawing, reading and putting away laundry. Grrr. I wish I had thought to make some plans...

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Rant time!!!

Okay so I just got back from my little sisters band concert.
It was at the same middle school that I went to... in the same auditorium I used to have choir concerts in... so... many... painful... memories...
But that's not the point of this blog post.
See, there was this floutist who was slouching the entire time!!!!!
Floutists are supposed to sit up straight for the same reason that singers are supposed to sit up straight. Slouching squishes up all of the organs that you need to breathe-diaphragm, lungs, etc.-and you need to breathe to play the flute!!!!!!!! and you need to be able to breathe WELL!!!!!!! It can't be all constricted-sounding. Then the music just sounds messed up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is kind of a pet peeve of mine.
GRRRRRRRRR!!!!!
Anyways, thats all I have to say.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Dammit, Janet.

So today I had the vocal and acting audition for Rocky Horror. I sang "Somewhere that's green" from "Little shop of horrors".
Here's how that went down:
Okay so I was in a group with two of my friends, and we went over our songs together, and that was okay. I mean, I had to do it a couple of times before it sounded decent, but it ended up sounding okay.
Then we got into the room.
So my other two friends did pretty much AMAZING. The first ones voice cracked once, but she recovered from it fairly well. The second one went flat a couple of times, but again she recovered from it really well.
Then it was my turn.
I started singing. At first it was going okay, then my voice cracked-just once, and just for like a second. I was like "just keep going".
Then it cracked again.
"It's fine. Just keep going"
Then again. And again. And again.
At that point the Voice of Reason in my head started yelling "WRAP IT UP! WRAP IT UP! JUST GET IT OVER WITH!" And that's when I sped up a little too much. I totally was off from the music for about the next ten seconds, then I fixed it just in time for the end.
Ugh.
But the acting part went well.

Well no sense stressing about things I have zero control over, right?

There's always the next show...

Meh.

While I wallow in pain and self-pity, watch this video.


Damn, Tim Curry has terrific legs.

Oh well. The show probably won't be that good anyway. Rocky just isn't Rocky without Tim Curry in his fishnets and Patricia Quinn with her big hair and the lips that mouth "Science Fiction/Double Feature" and all the costumed freaks yelling the lines and throwing toast
(especially at the end when they yell "DOES THIS MEAN WE CAN'T USE YOUR PHONE?" XD And all the comments about the narrators neck?? And the REAL versions of "science fiction/double feature" and "Touch-a Touch-a Touch-a Touch me" and "Eddie" which I won't even type here because it will surely freak out Jude? No. It just wouldn't be the same).
Sigh...

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

time meant nothing, never would again...


So my dance audition was today.
It. Was. TERRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So okay here's the deal: I'm short. There are lots of tall people at my school. And there were 80 people auditioning!!!!!!!
80 people!!!!!!!! There are only like 300 people in the entire school!!!!!!! Thats more than 1/4 of the school!!!!!!!!
So I'm short, and so is my friend Zoe, and somehow we were pushed to the back of the group. BAD!!!!!!!! So the chick is up there going like "okay so do this thing with your arms for 8 counts, then do this popping thing for 4 counts, then this pose-y thing for 4 more counts, then hop like this, then twist one foot like this, then do the popping thing again but really fast and jerk-y for 8 counts, then this spinning shimmy thing, then this weird hoping shuffle thing, then somethkng that sponebob did once, then more razy spinning and hopping and shuffling, then... LET'S DO THE TIME WARP AGAIN!!!!"
Excuse me, but WHAT???
No! This is how you do the time warp:
It's just a jump to the left...
and then a step to the ri-i-i-i-ight.
Put your hands on your hips...
and bring your knees in ti-i-ight!
But it's the pelvic thrust that really drives you insa-a-a-a-ane...
LET'S DO THE TIME WARP AGAIN!!!!
Watch this video for an even better idea:


See? I can do THAT time warp perfectly well!!!!! But whatever they were making us do was a thousand times more complicated!!!!!!
Anyways, me and Zoe (whos even shorter than me) couldnt see a thing!!! We only picked up about half of the dance!!!!!
So then we broke into a bunch of groups and went into the hall to practice. I was in group number seven out of eight so we had LOTS of time... and believe me, we put it to good use. We had a kid who is an actual dancer show us how to do it (again) and we went over it with him like ten times, and we practiced it like twenty times, but it was really long and complicated, but we did the best we could, and by the end we could do it looking only somewhat pathetic.
Then came time to actually do it for the people.
So basically heres what happened: we get into the room, and they say "okay, so four of you go in a semi circle around the others, and you all do the eight count arm thing, but then the bac row snaps like this and the front row time warps, then you switch. Okay?" Then I made it through the pose-y part, then I got lost. So I use the mirrored wall to look at Paige, who's looking at Marissa or Miranda or whatever her name was, who's a dancer so I was surprised to see that she was just as lost as me and Paige. We stood there for about thirty seconds, just looking at each other in the mirrors, then we basically started moving our arms and hips randomly, big cheesy smiles on our faces, ad then we faded to the back and let the others go. I have no clue how the did, the only thing I could think was "crap. crap. crap."
My acting and singing audition is tomorrow, and I'm hoping to do really good on those, and that if I do an amazing, fantastic job, that it'll make up (at least somewhat) for my suckish dance audition.
Basically, I need a miracle.
But crazier things have happened...
I'm off to drink some tea with honey and lemon juice. And maybe drink a glass of chocolate milk. No dairy for me tomorrow... Might as well enjoy it while I can.
Please send positive thoughts my way tomorrow around 4:00-4:15 (thats right, I'm staying after for an hour and a half for this audition. The things I do for Rocky). It will be greatley appreciated!!

Monday, December 13, 2010

...

Okay, so as a general rule, I tend to nap a lot in winter, and I often have some really wild dreams...
Well when I woke up from a nap this afternoon, my mom and sister informed me that I was talking in my sleep... in Spanish :/
I speak Spanish, but I'm not fluent or anything, so I found this weird...
So, as I do with most weird things, I asked my friend with the big fluffy hair about it, because he knows a lot about, well, everything. He speaks German-even better than I can speak Spanish, and I'm a TA for the freshmen spanish class- and he tells me that he dreams in English, but speaks German in his sleep all the time...
Anyone know why that is?

Even though theres no way of knowing...

...where to go, I promise I'm going because IIIII gotta get outta heereee...
(be my escape by relient k)
TODAY I GET TO LEAVE THE HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My mom said I could stay home, but I was like "hell no!!!! I've been in this house for two days straight and I NEED to leave cuz im going crazy!!!! hand me my pants!!!!! I'm outta here!!!!!!" Which is why I'm skipping make up, hair and spending like twenty minues on an outfit only to get frustrated and throw on something ridiculous, in favor of leaving early and getting breakfast at mconalds!

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Winter in Minnesota. Yippee.

So I've spent the last two days snowed in. So I decided to make this list:

Things to do when snowed in, and why they rock:

-youtube karaoke.
The general rule of karaoke is that it doesn't matter if you're the best singer in the world or the worst-it's how much you get into it that makes it good or bad. A great karaoke song, whether you do it at an actual karaoke place or at home alone when you're going a little bit crazy from not being able to leave the house, is "Jesse's girl" its really easy to get into XD

-watch people trying to get their car out of huge snow piles
While saying things like "come on! you can do it!" and cheering enthusiastically when they finally do get out :D

-write songs
Or if, like me, you don't really write your own music, just take a song that actually exists and change the lyrics.

-read old diaries
and laugh at how immature you were back then

-call a friend who is also snowed in
and complain together. Misery loves company.

-organize your socks
...if you're really that desperate for entertainment.

-check out what the weather's like in South Beach, Miami right now
If I could be anywhere in the world right now, it would be south beach. Ugh.

I'm actually super psyched for school tomorrow, because it means I get to leave the house!

WATCH THIS NOW!!!

Omigod!
In history we were learning about the vietnam war and I thought about this episode of hey arnold (coincidentally, it's the christmas special) which I hadnt seen in years and I HAD to watch it again!!! It made me cry!!!!! So here it is :) i know the opening credits and all the words written anywhere are backwards, but whatever, its still sweet and adorable :)

part 1


part 2


part 3



I love it!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Saturday, December 11, 2010

What do you say we leave for California? If we drive all night, we can make it by the morning.

That's it. I'm running away to Miami.






So, for those of you who don't know, today in this lovely state we call Minnesota, we had the biggest blizzard since 1991.
Dangerous for several reasons!!!!!!
So today I went outside to attempt to help dig my friend Nikki's car out of a huge snow pile, and it was freaking insane!!!!!!!!! The second we got back inside my mom started freaking out.
Whats even scarier:
I was so cold I thought I would go take a shower to thaw. The water wasnt even that hot... but the temperature change made me so dizzy that I totally almost passed out!
After that I was so tired that I just slept for like three hours.
So then I told two of my friends that we should all run away to miami, and one of them was like "lets do it!" but then the other one (the friend with the big fluffy hair) pointed out that none of us have weather-appropriate clothes because theyre in storage, and all we have are sweaters and jeans.
Plus we dont have swim suits, and no one is dumb enough to sell swimsuits in winter in minnesota, so wed have to buy swimsuits when we get to miami, so wed most likely end up in a bikini (me) and a speedo (him).
Which led to some very disturbing mental images :/
I was supposed to do a monologue tomorrow (a christmas thing that was very widely advertised) but it was canceled because of the ridiculous weather (which is kind of a good thing because it was a really difficult monologue because it was written by some sunday school teacher in like the 60s and i wasnt feeling too confident about it...)
So anyways heres a song that i was singing while trying to free Nikki's car from that giant pile of snow:

Monday, December 6, 2010

If your life had a face, I would punch it. I would punch you life in the face.

Don't you love it when you bond with people over a mutual hate over another person/thing?
It makes that person/thing much more tolerable.


Saturday, December 4, 2010

Oh, darling, I wish you were here.


Today would have been Ryon's 18th birthday.
I miss you. Happy birthday.


Today my plans are:
-read "through the looking glass" again :)
I love that book.
One of my favorite quotes comes from that book.
"Alice: One can't believe impossible things.
White Queen: Why, Sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."
Alice in wonderland rules.
I must say this though: as much as I love the Tim Burton version with Johnny Depp, I like the cartoon one best.
The song "follow me down" by 3Oh!3 was written for that movie!!!!!! Its on my playlist. Go listen to it.

Fan art time!!!


Thursday, December 2, 2010

all i want for christmas is...


...you :D

Nah, JK, that'd be weird. Id rather have...
-a barnes and noble gift card
-a pair of gloves (i lost mine and ive taken instead to walking up to my friends and sticking my hands up their sleeves to keep my hands warm. it really works :D )
-my old Britney Spears CD back :(
-a copy of rocky horror on DVD!!!!!!!!!! So i can stop repeatedly renting it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-a fake I.D. so i can get in to see midnight showings of rocky horror at the movie theater without having to beg someone 18 or older to come with me (kidding... sorta)
-a copy of Scott Pilgrim vs. the world on DVD (BECAUSE IT IS ALSO AMAZING!!!!!!!)
-all of the OLD pokemon episodes up until the first movie (i used to have them all, but my mom got rid of them :/)
-PLAY-DOUGH!!!!!!!
-a stuffed animal giraffe (theyre pretty much my favorite animal right now :D)

Thats pretty much all ive got to say. I'll hopefully have something more interesting to say tomorrow. till then, heres a picture of a liger. Enjoy.


Wednesday, December 1, 2010

FANTABULOUS NEWS!!!!!!

IM GONNA START PLAYING THE FLUTE AGAIN!!!!!! :D
okay sooooooooooo my lil sis is playing clarinet in band and i was looking through her clarinet book and there was a fingering chart on the back page and i asked her if she could hook me up with one for flute and she asked her band teacher and he said id have to pay for a whole book but it was only a few bucks so i did it and then my auntie has a flute that she never plays and she said I could borrow/steal it as soon as she gets it back from her friend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Guess what I'm seeing tonight???

ROCKY HORROR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!








TIME WARPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
Watch this, and then watch this:








:D
Love. This. Movie!

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Do you know what it feels like, being alone? I'll find someone new...

Let me say this before I start: I'm kind of in a bad mental state right now. Nothing to worry about; I have anxiety and this happens all the time. Usually when this happens I do what I have to do (school, honoring previous commitments, small talk with the family for a half hour or so) with as much cheerfulness as I can fake and then go lie under the covers, earphones in, and nap on and off till the mood passes. But my mom is laying on my bed right now, my favorite pandora station is playing a little too much matchbox twenty for my taste, and I left my diary in my locker at school (NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!) and I really need to freaking verbalize some emotions. I will try to do so with the least amount of negativity possible though.

Here's what has happened to me over the last two days:
*yesterday morning!!!!!!!!!!*
Waken up from some truly lovely dreams at the ungodly hour of 9 am by some loud and unpleasant banging on the door and my little sister saying rather loudly "EZRA CAN YOU GET THAT??????? I'M PLAYING GAMES ON THE COMPUTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" *groan.* I drag myself out of bed (messy hair, no glasses) and answer the door to see a random mexican guy standing there. Our conversation went a little like this:
Me: *yawning* ummmmmm... hi?
Him: Hi.
Me: uuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... *yawns some more. says next part through a particularly long yawn* Hi...
Him: I-I-m here to fix wall? *gestures to all the stuff he has with him*
Me: ummm... k. *yawns and runs fingers through gnarly, tangled, slept-in hair*
Him: I come in?
Me: ummmm sure... *opens door so he can enter*

Looking back I probably should have told him to come back later, considering the fact that my mom wasnt home :P but I was still asleep. And he turned out not to be a creeper, just a maintenance dude named Pablo. And he fixed the hole in our wall.
By the time Pablo left (around 11:30), it was time for me to get ready to leave. My grandma was coming to pick me up so I could help her cook for thanksgiving the next day.
Here's my grandmas house in a nutshell: dark, creepy, dusty. My auntie and her 3-year-old daughter live there, and while I love both of them, my auntie is dreadfully overprotective of me.
Example!
I made the mistake of mentioning that I was gonna see rocky horror with a friend on saturday night, and when she asked who was going with us I said "probably one of her brothers friends" and she got all protective and was like "well I dont know if I can trust her brothers friends!!!!!!"
Me: "We've been to concerts and stuff with them. Theyre college kids so theyre kinda dumb (has flashback to the time her brother and one of his friends wanted to pierce their own noses and decided to do a couple of shots to dull the pain-dont worry,theyre both 21 and they would never offer alcohol to minors-which didnt work, and woke up the next morning with the needles still sticking out of their faces!!!!! oh god, good times) but theyre harmless. I'll be fine."
Her: "no i dont like that. I havent met them and i dont know if I trust them. I think I'll just take you".
Me: Auntie, no!!!!"
her: "why not?" me: (desperately trying to think of a way to get out of going with her) "uhhh...ummm.... the show doesnt start till midnight, and i wouldnt want you to have to stay up later than youre used to..."
her: "im fine with that. I think ill just take you"
me: "on second thought, maybe I wont go..."
her: "why not?"
me: (trying to think of a good lie because i dont think "because if i go with you i cant swear or wear anything fun. and if i went to concerts with you I never would have met the lead singer of my favorite band because you would be like 'theyre strangers and i dont want you talking to strangers' or gotten a hug from the screamer for the band who opened up for FTSK and then gotten like six free red bulls and stayed up all night, and basically even tough i love you I think I'd rather swallow this entire carton of eggs, shell and all" will fly with her) ummmm... cuz the friend im going with is someone youve met before and dont like very much
Her: then say you cant go with her.
Me: *sigh...*
So, because of that, there is a very good chance that instead of spending saturday night with one of my best friends, dressed in something adorable and slightly revealing from her closet and having the sort of fun that only occurs when you stay out late in uptown (nothing illegal or dangerous implied, of course) with some college kids who mainly care about getting us home alive and sober before the sun rises, I will be feeling awkward and uncomfortable in way too much clothes with my 41-year-old aunt and constantly watching myself so i dont swear in front of her, then having to deal with her complain about being out too late/the movie theatre being to loud and crowded/the fact that she cant even hear the movie over the lines being yelled at the screen, and being gulted into leaving early.
I think ill tell her the plans off and go with my friend and her bros friends anyways.
its not like shes my mom. my mom doesnt care (thank you, mommy, for not inheriting the freaky over-protective gene like your sister!)
and her daughter is adorable, but nothing sucks quite like being woken up at 2 am by a screaming three-year-old.
I wont even get into the rest of the day I spent at my grandmas house. Basically I watched lots of tv and went to bed at like 10:30 because i was so bored.
woken up at around 1:30 from a text from a friend who was having a much better time than me.

*thanksgiving day!!!*
woken up from some truly lovely dreams at the ungodly hour of 9 am by my grandma hovering about 4 inches from my face, repeatedly whispering my name. When she sees that my eyes are slightly open, she starts frantically yelling "WAKE UP!!!!!!! WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!! WE HAVE TO GET THE NUT LOAF IN THE OVEN BY TEN!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED YOU TO SNAP GREEN BEANS!!!!!!!!!!!! WE HAVE VEGETABLES TO MASH AND POTATOES TO CHOP!!!!!! AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR HAIR!!!!!!!! GO!!!! GO!!!!!!!!!!! GOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" then ran away like a chicken with its head off. I rolled off the couch, made some breakfast that i barely remember eating, and drank a cup of coffee. We didnt get the nut loaf in the oven by ten, but thats okay because people werent coming over till 1:30.
I spent the whole f*%&ing day in the kitchen. If it werent for the fact that i had found a pandora station that plays some excellent 90s dance music, I would have snapped and sunken into my depressive state much earlier. at least she didnt object to me wearing my pajamas and hello kitty slippers all day (which im still wearing, btw).  and then they came over.
my mom and second cousin were there, which was great. they both have the awesomest personalities, which was very much appreciated after spending over 24 straight hours in a house full of total nuts. But after eating a ton of food (and having my grandma make me feel totally fat for eating three rolls) and playing
3 card games
4 word games
way too many rounds of the "say what youre thankful for" thanksgiving game (mine: I'm thankful that im not a native american that lived here hundreds of years ago." "im thankful that those dickheads the pilgrims arent around anymore." "im very very very thankful that i dont eat turkey")
and 1 round of charades
I was so ready to leave. I ask my mom "how much longer are me staying?" he said "oh just a few more hours."
PSHAW!!! HOURS?!?!?!?!?!! I barely wanted to be there another minute!!!!!!!! i missed my appartment!!!!!!!!! I missed my bed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I missed my beloved stuffed hedgehog, harold!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So i did what any teenager would do: i took out my ipod and started texting.
Of course, no one was responding because they were too busy eating turkey and spending time with their own families. Really really reallllllllllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy regretted not answering that 1:30 am text and enjoying a conversation with someone from the outside world while i still could.
So I got this awesome game called Stick Wars, where you have a wall and a bunch of stick people try to attack it and you have to defend it. you have to throw them up in the air and at the wall and at each other and stuff and then they die. and when you reach higher levels, you can take them prisoner and have them fight for you, and you can train wizards and archers and people to repair your wall and you ca throw fireballs at them and meteors and stuff.
And amazingly, no one even noticed for like a half hour that i wasnt paying any attention to them!!!!! Especially strange since i was leaning my head on my moms lap so i would think shed have noticed... i got to level 32 before she did notice, at wich point she stole my ipod and stuck it in her pocket.
I found her googling stuff on it about twenty minutes later.
Finally, finally, FINALLY, I was allowed to leave.
now im sitting here, listening to my backup sulky-music pandora station that i have in case my other one starts to suck, and basically waiting for bedtime. hoping mom eventually goes to her own bed and doesnt just crash on mine, even though it is quite comfy. and even after writing this post, i dont feel much better.
maybe ill write some emo poetry, or draw pictures with my black and red sharpies. I always end up getting rid of anything i create while in one of my moods, cuz the poetry just sounds pathetic and the drawings always kind of freak me ut to look at, even tough upon closer inspection theyre prety much just random doodles, only in more emo colors.
i think ill go play stick wars some more.

Monday, November 22, 2010

It's time to go so put all your clothes on...

Today I rediscovered my obsession with the Maine :)
I quote that song in my story.
Well this week I only have two days of school!!!!! Yessssssss!!!
Here r my plans:
Wednesday- thanksgiving preparation with my grandma
Thursday- thanksgiving with Mi familia
Friday- hang out with Jude?
And finally....
Saturday- ROCKY HORROR AT MIDNIGHT WITH SOME FELLOW FANATICS- the same ones I do the time warp with every day in history class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

on Sunday I will probably practice my song for my Rocky Horror audition with one of my friends... If I can, that is.
Around thanksgiving I'm always feeling my most rebellious... Kind of wanting to start a protest. Protest that people should only buy organic, humanely raised turkey? Or that it's bogus to celebrate a holiday that is basically about the pilgrims being treated so nicely by the native Americans, only to return the favor with smallpox and eventually taking their land and forcing them onto reservations? Maybe get some peeps together and walk into a ridiculously priced store dresses as homeless people? I don't know. I'll probably just sneak into an r rated movie and eat a pound of movie theater popcorn with extra butter (which is what I did last year to get my rebellious energy out).
Idk. Hopefully I'll gef a better idea.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

I love this :)




favorite nevershoutnever song and i really love the video for some reason :)

Saturday, November 20, 2010

I made a video!

Yeah this was just me being lame Xd I guess its more of a slideshow than a video...
I will post another one in the near future.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

"You'll be my princess and I'll be a toad..."

Hey :) I think that you should totally listen to a little song called "mario kart love song". It's on my playlist and its pretty much my favorite song right now :) I know it sounds really lame and cheesy, but its actually super cute and i can guarantee that it will make you smile :)
thats all I have to say.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Omg :O

I just found out that my friend with the big hair hates building snowmen!!!!!!!!
What kind of person hates snowmen????????????????
I'm going to have to rethink our friendship...

On the first day of Christmas, my true love gave to me...

Personally if someone I thought was my true love gave me a bird for christmas, I'd be a little pissed. Birds are supposed to be free!!!! Not given to people as Christmas presents!!! Id much rather have a barnes and noble gift card.
Anyway, my computer is acting up, so I have to type this blog post on my iPod touch :P. Just a fun fact.
Let's see, what to type about...
Yesterday I watched the first (and last) Halloween special that I've watched this year. Yes, I know Halloween was two weeks ago. But me and my friend with the big fluffy hair wanted to watch "it's the great pumpkin, Charlie brown!". Together, and we were both busy the weekend of Halloween (par-Tay!!!!!) and we weregonna do it last weekend, but his mom was suffering from temporary insanity or something and said no for no apparent reason (seriously, he was like "why couldn't Ezra come over?". And she was like "I don't know. ". :P). So yesterday we finally did that :). It was great. I love hanging out with him.
It has finally snowed :). I really want to go do winter-y things (build snowmen, have a giant snowball fight, go buy hot chocolate with extra chocolate at the coffee shop, decorate Christmas trees, watch Casablanca (which I like to do in winter for some reason), buy ugly holiday sweaters at ragstock, bake christmas cookies, Etc...) before I get sick of the snow which always happens. Me and the same friend that I hung out with yesterday have plans to watch the Charlie brown Christmas special (which always makes me cry at the end) and bake brownies and right now I am attempting to organize a snowball fight with some friends whom I can hopefully go get hot chocolate with afterwards. Sadly, it looks like most people already have plans :(. I'm considering just posting my facebook status as "comment if u live near me and want to have a snowball fight today". I really want to do something!!!
If all else fails, ill go shopping for warm clothes and ugly holiday sweaters. If I can get any money, that is.
Well I'm gonna go. Bye blog readers! (if I have any blog readers... :P)

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

"All those other Slim Shadys are just imitating..."

I know all of the words to that song :) and I can sing along with it without messing up about 95% of the time.
I'm not sure whether to be proud or horrified by that.

So NaNoWriMo... Erg. Why cant it be some time in the summer? like July? July would be a great month to write a novel!!!! It's not like you have anything ese to do. This last July all of my friends were busy with camp and stuff. I was so bored most of the time!!! Why couldn't it have been NaNoWriMo then???????

So tomorrow im going to school dressed like Marylin Monroe... its for history class. That should be interesting...

Ummmm I dont have too much to say today...
bye!

Saturday, November 6, 2010

okay, sooo....

i didnt watch spongebob, eat a snack OR write. instead i did all sorts of stuff that ive been procrastinating doing, and then i wrote on my friends facebook wall in vietnamese, and watched an episode of "21 jump street" (i love that show!). I changed my facebook pic, i think i broke my record for "most non-productive things done in an hour or less". But now my mom is watching "the big sleep" and i think its boring even though it has humphrey bogart in it, so basically im killing time. and wasting your time with this lame blog post :P
i dont even have writers block. I simply dont feel like it.
okay and i actually am going to go write this time! i am!! i am i am i am i am i am i am i am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Quit playin games with my heart...

Today I accomplished...
-two pages of my NaNoWriMo story
-beating one level of the worlds hardest game (go to addictinggames.com and search for it. its strangely addicting)
-drawing one picture (what i think Snow White would look like if she was alive today)
-drank two cups of coffee (all black with lots of sugar)
-bought three buttons (all for other people)
-gave three dollars to a homeless dude
-successfully eavesdropped on someones converdsation...in spanish
-translated part of a Gwen Stefani song into spanish WITHOUT the use of the internet
-Realized I am a total geek when it comes to spanish
-convinced the guy at the comic store to give me a discount (oh yeah, i am just that good)
-wrote a poem (topic is a bit controversial so i will not be putting it on here)

Am I happy with all thse accomplishments?
No, I am not.
-only two pages?!?!? must stop slacking off.
-was playing that game when i should have been writing
-a.)she has no legs, and b.)drew it when i should have been writing
-two cups on an almost empty stomach. anyone whos ever drank two cups of coffee on an almost empty stomach knows that this is not a good idea
-my original reason for shopping was to buy myself a skirt...not buttons
-okay, no regrets here :) just wish i could have afforded to give him more...
-eavesdropping on spanish conversation when i should have been writing.
-trranslated song when should have been writing.
-cant believe i did not realize this untill today.
-wasted time at comic store when i should have been writing. plus, he only discounted the tax. so it was only like a few dollars.
-wrote a poem when i should have been writing my NaNoWriMo story!!!
and now im blogging when i should be writing.
and also facebook-ing when i should be writing.
on the brighter side, Im getting my aunt to upload the pics of me on halloween when my costume was a piece of glitter :) maybe ill put it on here when she puts it on.
uhmmmmm..... i really dont have muchelse to say. :(
my mom is convinced im doing bad things and just spent like a half hour looking over my shoulder. of course she found nothing.
ok, i should probs go write. or consider writing. or maybe get a snack. oooh, i like that idea.
i feel like spongebob in the episode where he has to write an essay and he doesnt want to so he procrastinates until five minutes before class starts...
and now i want to wtach spongebob. im gonna go do that. and eat a snack. and then write.

Friday, November 5, 2010

Thursday, November 4, 2010

I'll get you a satanic mechanic...

So. Today I had to stay home from school. Long, dramatic story. I'm spending it watching 21 jumpstreet and disney movies that I haven't seen in forever (I'm watching Anastasia right now!).
But I'm also writing. I started my story over. My main character-Maria Svetlana Carrion-is still in it, and the same thing eventually happens, but I changed the entire beginning. I decided she has hair like Magenta's :) And I took some of my favorite characters from other stories that I started and never finished and im putting them in it :) i hope it turns out better than the other one was. And amazingly, I knew exactly how to start it the second I came up with the idea for how i was gonna change the beginning!!! Ive already started it :) which is a miracle because i suck massively at starting stories.
Now im gonna go write and watch Anastasia some more :)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

It's astounding, time is fleeting...


I FINALLY saw that movie!!!
and guess what?
I LOVED IT!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH IT WAS AMAZING!!!!!!
I SOOO wish I had hair like Magenta's. Or that I could pull off hair like Magenta's. Here's a pic of magenta that I found on google images and edited on picnik.

Anyway, guess who's been massively slacking off on her NaNoWriMo writing... *raises hand*
I got a couple of pages done today while TAing... but i got distracted and started writing in my diary instead.
I know im not supposed to, but im thinking of starting over...
Yeah. thats all i got today. byes.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Thrill me, chill me, fulfill me, creature of the night ;)

INNAPROPRIATE SONG ALERT!!!!!!
And yet... that whole soundtrack is so damn catchy...
Andyways, day two of NaNaWriMo!!!!!
I actually got some done today :) but the ammount I did get done is downright pitiful :/
I did most of my writing in history class. We just got done with WWII and other stuff that happened in the '40s, which I know pretty much EVERYTHING about from my (very) brief phase where I was obsessed with the '40s. Now we're getting into the '50s and the cold war, which I also know about. So I take notes of things I didn't already know, but mostly I write or draw. So I hope to get most of it done in that class :)
Also, I'm TAing for the spanish 1 class, and our spanish teacher warned me that id probably have lots of down time, so i might get something done during that time too :)
the main problem is the lack of excellent writing music... it always helps to have music. for me at least. and snacks. and coffee.
Well snacks are covered-i just bought a ton of wasabi peas, and my acting teacher always has coffee in his room. I could live on wasabi peas and coffee :)
well i should probs quit slacking off and go write more. byes.

Monday, November 1, 2010

first day of nanowrimo=massive fail.

Okay, so its the first day of nanowrimo. I WAS going to write... but its a day off from school and i was still friend from the extended halloween that I had, so i slacked off. i spent all day napping and watching cartoons. im disappointed in myself :P
But i swear that tomorrow i will start on my novel.
thats all. im going back to sleep now. bye.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

i see you shiver with antici.......pation.

So rocky horror didnt happen :( Long story short, our plans changed last minute and we ended up going to a halloween party instead. i dressed as a prostitue :) it was fun. and i did the time warp at the party, so there was a little rocky horror-ness involved... but tomorrow i have no school!!!!!!! and both my mom and sister do have school, so i was planning on just watching it on netflix while theyre out so i dont bother them (my mom hates that movie and the music with a burning passion, and my sister is abnormally squeamish during sex scenes... like moreso than any person whom has ever lived and ever will live, and ive heard that that movie is really sexual, so i thought id watch it when im home alone so i wont annoy anyone) but my sister is thinking of just skipping school tomorrow, and my mom might actually let her!!!!!!!!!!! (my mom was a younger sibling, so shes all for treating the younger one "fairly" (aka spoiling them) and will do stuff like let her stay home too if i have off school, but sadly will not let me do the same thing) well she'll just have to deal, because i was already gonna do this and im not changing my plans. The last two days have felt like one long day separated by a nap (im running on only 4 hours of sleep by the way... another long story involving lots of drama, some favoritism, and ends with me stealing my friends sweater then waiting outside her appartmet at 8 am without any shoes on for my mom to come pick me up an hour and a half earlier than we planned) and tomorrow is going to be a lazy day, spent in my pajamas watching movies and eating something other than pizza and candy. ive had enough excitement to last me for at least two weeks.
So in other news, nanowrimo starts in like an hour and fifteen minutes. I am really excited :) i have a feeling that november is going to be an excellent month. maybe its a hallucination from all the sugar ive eaten in the past two days/extremely long day separated by a nap, or excitement at finally seeing rocky horror after listeining to the music for like a week and a half straight, or an adrenalin rush from the fact that i totally left my friends house unsure whether we were fighting or not and taking my favorite sweater of hers with me while she was still asleep (well i told her mom to let her know that i left early and that i also borrowed her sweater, but im not really sure if she heard the part about the sweater... well whatever i left my freaking shoes at her house, so we can consider it a trade. plus im kinda pissed at her), or all of the above, but at the moment im feeling pretty optomistic about the month of november :)
song of the day today: wake me up before you go-go by Wham!
touch of irony :) (see above, the part about leaving my friends house)
okay and now im gonna go crashhhhhh!!!!!!!!! byes.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

I'm just a sweet transvestite...

...from transexual Transylvania!!!! :D
I'M GOING TO SEE THE ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW AT MIDNIGHT TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!
Amazing last-minute change of plans :) Me and my friend Chelsea were going to go to our friends halloween oarty, but our ride flaked out on us last-minute and we couldn't get a ride from anyone else :( But that's okay cuz I really didn't want to go anyway. And her mom is gonna be out of town for the night, so we have no supervision, and no one to yell at us for being out past curfew. And a theatre by my house is playing the rocky horror picture show at midnight, so we decided to go see that instead!!! and we're still gonna wear our costumes of course :) i really like my dress for my costume (me and her were gonna go to the party as Romy and Michelle from Romy and Michelle's high school reunion... we already bought the clothes, and it would be so bogus to just not wear them!!! My dress is blue and shiny :) ) I'm freaking excited!!!!!!! I ve never seen the movie, but i love the music, and ive been wanting to see it. so tonight i get to!!!!!
and i told my mm about it and she so doesnt care about us being out late. im sure chelsii's mom would flip... but shes not here to stop us, is she? MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! XD
ok im gonna go now. byes.

Friday, October 29, 2010

SUCCESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I finally did it!!!!!!!!! I made a flip book of a stick person doing the time warp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel so cool :)
Post-its proved to be the best thing for flip books, in case you were wondering :) It is 62 pages long and its about eleven seconds long :) first it has the little stick dude adncing then it has letters spelling out "Let's do the time warp Again!" it took me a half hour total, including the time it took to trace over it all in marker because the pencil just wasn't cool looking enough :) and yes, I listened to music from the rocky horror picture show while I made it :)
I just felt like bragging :) I'm extremely happy with how it turned out :D

It's just a jump to the left...

...and a step to the riiiiight. Put your hands on your hips, and bring your knees in tiight. But it's the pelvic thrust that really drives you insaaaaane...
LET'S DO THE TIME WARP AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So after I finished my history final today, I tried to make a flip book of a stick person doing the time warp... I ALMOST have it down!!! It's almost PERFECT!!! It's SO CLOSE!!! I've watched that dang clip fromthe movie about a billion times today (what started out as something I was doing out of total boredom has become something I am totally obsessing about...) and I have the jump to the left and the step to the right, and the putting thehands on the hips is fine, and bringing the knees in tight was a bit difficult, but it's the pelvic thrust that I can't get down (it really is the pelvic thrust that really drives you insane!!!!!!) GRRRRRR!!!! I WILL GET IT PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So now that my rant is over, I really have nothing else to say :P I'm off to try different kinds of paper for my flip book. Byes!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

I really really want to make a blanket fort...

...and just stay in it all day long.
I want to hibernate like a freaking bear. Know why?
because WINTERS HERE!!! XP
I hate winter!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is my least favorite season. I always freak out when i see the snow!!!! Every year in winter I swear this is the year that I'm gonna run away to miami, but i always decide that its too cold to leave the house, so i cant exactly run away :/ and my mom never believes me... but i totally would.
GAH!!!!! WHY DOES IT ALWAYS SNOW BY HALLOWEEN??????????????????????? why cant we just wait till december to get snow??? i like having snow at christmas, but halloween??? this totally ruins all halloween costume ideas that dont involve about fifty billion layers.
it is the week before halloween. I dont want to have to worry about walking to my bus stop without turning into an Ezracicle... I want to sit in a blanket fort and watch scary movies!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrr...
If i suddenly quit posting things, just assume that i finally did it and im in miami. see you next spring.

Friday, October 22, 2010

I IS ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, so there were all these books that I really want to read but they dont have them at the library, so i ask them to order them from other libraries, and they say theyll call me when they have them, right? they never freaking call me, so my hold on the books expires and i have to request them again. They apologize and say that they really will call me this time, and i think its cuz my phone was acting stupid. So i get a new phone, but i still never get a freaking call from the library so the next time i go there i find that my hold has expired AGAIN! so they tell me that they can let me know when my books are in by email since obviously theres something wrong with the whole phoning system and i request the books a third time. But now i get a call saying my books are in... but no email. WTF? Im about to burn walker library down!!!!!!!!!!!! >:(

On the slightly brighter side, its almost NaNoWriMo. Which means I have a month to write a novel. I have an idea already, but i havent actually started it yet. me and Jude R. are possibly gonna pull an all-nighter some weekend to work on our novels... i will probably pull many more all-nighters or almost-all-nighters in an attempt to finish it by the end of the month. I'm super excited :)

Friday, October 15, 2010

Radio edits!!!!! XD

Lol!!! I love radio edits :) I was listening to pandora and the radio edit version of "almost" by bowling for soup (remember when that song was on the radio like every five minutes? I was like nine when that song was popular. Ahh, those were the days :) ) its SOO DORKY!!!
here's how the real version goes:
I almost got drunk at school at 14
Where I almost made out with the homecoming queen
Who almost went on to be miss texas
But lost to a slut with much bigger breastes
Not exactly radio disney friendly, so heres how they edited it:
I almost got punked at school at 14
Where I almost got a hug from the homecoming queen
Who almost went on to be Miss Texas
But lost to a girl who sews her own dresses.

I mean, really???? thats the best they could come up with??? I am going to make a list of worst radio edits ever... once i hear enough really terrible ones. The ones ive heard arent bad enough to put on a list except for these three:
-"semi-charmed life" by Third Eye Blind radio edit where all they do is cut out the bridge, and none of the references to drugs or sex!! I mean, really, whats the point???
-"Almost" by bowling for soup radio disney edit (because all the other stations were like "f*** it im playing the real version") this was just like watching the TV edit of "Clueless" where they change all the swear words to other words. only seen it once, and when murray told dionne "I swear *blank spot where he should have said "to god"* woman, you can't drive for show!(where he should have just said shit)" I died a little inside because it was so lame.
-"Dont trust me" by 3oh!3 that they played on KDWB where they didnt even try to edit the words or bleep them out, they just cut that part out so there were all these blank spots in the song!!!!!! they did it to my favorite line:
"and tell you boyfriend, if he says hes got beef, that im a vegetarian and i ain't ________ scared of him"
WTF?????????? id have rather have them not play it at all than do that!!!!
they do the same thing in the so-called "clean" version of "my own worst enemy" by Lit, but thats like only two times in the whole song!!! for "dont trust me" they do it during the chorus:
"dont trust a ___
never trust a ___
dont trust a ___
dont trust me"
One time is understandable. but if its every time the chorus plays???? not cool!!!

There is one thing radio edits are good for: theyre fun to make fun of :)
I dont really get the point in shielding kids from swear words. I mean, when theyre like really little i get it -i dont swear in front of my friends 3 year old sister- but when they get older i dont see the point. my friend has a cousin who is thirteen years old, and if any of us swear in front of her, she tells her mom and then her mom b!tches us out. So obviously we try not to, and we never swear at her, but if she overhears us having a conversation and then tells her mom if we swear during it, thats reallllllllllyyyyyy obnoxious. plus, theyre gonna hear that stuff at school and stuff, so you cant keep them from hearing swear words forever.

In other news....
I wrote two more mitosis love sonnets. Theyre even lamer than the first one... and i have to read them to the class *groan* I will post them later when i feel like typing them :)

Monday, October 11, 2010

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

I made a cartoon!


Okay so if you know me, like, at all, then you know that I really like to draw. Well I was zoning out in class the other day and I came up with a cartoon character thats square and has antennas and stuff like that. I named him Prince cuz I was listening to prince when I created him, and also because that day my friend with the big fluffy hair straightened his big fluffy hair and he looked like a disney prince in my opinion (in other words, he looked HOT). So I'm currently working on a drawing about him, but in the meantime I did this one on the computer. Enjoy :)

Inconvenient timing alert -.-

So it's morning, I have like 45 minutes before I have to leave, so for some reason I decide that now is a good time to sync my ipod with the music on my computer, because I have a ton of stuff that I wanted to put on there. I have 834 songs that weren't already on there :P I'm sure I'll only listen to about half of these, but because sorting through them all and only adding the ones I really want seemed like too much work, I decided to just add all of them. Its taking FOREVER!!!!! Stupid, stupid, stupid idea.
So, because I have like 15 more minutes until its done, I decided to write a blog post.
I showed my biology teacher my lame-o sonnet. She said it was cute :) Now I have to write 3 more :P
We were doing a project in groups in history, and this kid named Jorje (pronounced like "whore-hey") decided to not show up, so I got stuck doing his work along with mine, plus a bunch of extra stuff that I volunteered to do. The only reason that I actually did all of it instead of just ripping it up and cramming it down the garbage disposal is because my friend Tommy gave me a hug when I volunteered to do 4 times as much stuff as I was originally going to do. It's really really hard to say no to Tommy :) And he said he was sorry that I had to do all this other stuff, so I'm totally not pissed at him.
But Jorje... watch out.
I did a scene in acting yesterday. I SUCKED. I was memorized, but I was also nervous so of course I forgot my lines... I had my script in my pocket and I kept having to look at it!!! ugh. I wanna smack myself in the face right now. Thankfully, I have a chance to re-do it today... and I practiced for like two hours last night so I know I'll do better.
Okay my computers dying. byes!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Cartoons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I woke up this morning wishing that I was a cartoon character.
Well, I always wish I was a cartoon character. But today I do more than I normally do.
List of best cartoons ever created! (shortened A LOT)
-The powerpuff girls!
-Spongebob!
-Hey Arnold!
-Blues clues!
-Scooby-doo!
-The Jetsons!
-The Flintstones!
-Doug!
-The Wild Tornberries!
-Rugrats!!!

I thought I'd try to narrow it down to ten...
So I asked my mom what cartoon character I looked like, and she says I look like the yellow talking M&M from the M&M commercials!!!! That is so not a compliment!!!! Ahh!!!
Also, lately I've been comparing all my friends to cartoon characters... I'm not sure why... but I automatically am like "OMG!!!! they look just like ________!!!"
List of cartoon characters that my friends look like!
-Little cindy loo Who from "How the grinch stole christmas" (this is acutally my little sister. My mom and I decided that she looked like her when she was no more than two.)
-That cute little asparagus from "veggie tales"
-Cookie monster
-Buttercup from "the powerpuff girls"
-Blossom from "the powerpuff girls"
I so wish I looked like a character from the powerpuff girls!!
Anyways I have to get ready for school now :P Just thought I'd waste your time with this post before I left :) byes!!

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Mitosis love sonnet

Yes, you read that correctly. I wrote a love sonnet. About mitosis.
It's for biology class, but I still feel like a total nerd for writing a freaking love sonnet about mitosis. Also, it's super cheesy.
But I'm posting it on here anyway.

Mitosis love sonnet
Our love is like mitosis of a cell.
We started out crazy like chromatin.
Then we met, and we got along so well.
We connected like a pair of chromatids.
We bonded like a cell in metaphase.
Then, I'm not sure how, something interfered.
Then we appeared to go through anaphase,
and, like spindle fibers, our spark disappeared.
So you ditched me to be with a centrosome,
but I don't care, 'cause I did the same thing.
You've changed into a different chromasome
Than I thought you were in the beginning.
Now I am a part of a new cell,
And I hope you, too, are doing well.

Believe it or not, that took me like an hour and a half. Writing sonnets is HARD!
And I have to write three more within the next two weeks :/ That was ust the first one. My rough draft is due Monday, which consists of one completed cell sonnet and outlines for the other three. I should have just re-written another Billy Joel song.
Too late to change my mind now :P
I seriously have a newfound respect for Shakespeare. The freak wrote 154 sonnets! I've only written two in my whole life-one about waffles which is too lame to post here, and then this one^-and I'm already like "NO MORE SONNETS!!!!" I don't want to write three more, much less 152 more! God, I would have lost my effing mind if I was him XP
Okay I'm done whining.
Anyways I have nothing else to say :P Byes!

Friday, October 1, 2010

So wear me like a locket around your throat...

So I eventually got un-tangled from all the hemp :) Now I have a new necklace :D I'm actually super happy with how it turned out...
So... ummm... what to write, what to write...
So I'm reading the Scott Pilgrim comics now :D It just so happens that this guy I sit next to in Forensic Science has ALL SIX OF THEM so he's been letting me read his so I dont have to buy them :D I just finished the 5th one today :)
Oh!! I just thought of something... one of my friends is going through a breakup and hes like super bummed about it (he's kind of a chick when it comes to these things...) so I recommended a bunch of breakup songs for him that have upbeat/happy music but lyrics about breakups... So if anyone (a.k.a. Jude cuz im pretty sure shes the only one who reads my blog XD) has any ideas for songs like that, tell me, k? k. :)
ok I'm going to sleeeppp. G'nite!

Monday, September 27, 2010

Making hemp necklaces!!!

So I'm trying to learn how to make hemp necklaces. I bought a ton of "hemp cord" at the bead store, and its in all these awesome bright colors!!!!
The down side? It's super tangled. I'm trying to wind it around a spool so I can use it, but I've totally tangled myself up in the process. (If I don't do a blog post within the next week or so, send help!) As I write this, my right foot is completely tied up :/
In 8th grade, people often called me a hippie. I would look up from the dandelion crown I was making and say "what do you mean?" Now, two years later, I am tangled up in hemp and wearing a Grateful Dead t-shirt, and I think "Ohhh, I can see how they would say that."
Great, now my leg is bent at an odd angle in an attempt to get rid of a huge knot :/
Well if I ever get the hang of this, and if my necklaces turn out not to be hideous, I might post pictures!!!!!
Well, back to untangling myself :P Wish me luck!!!
-Ezi

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Remember back when tv shows were actually GOOD?

90s cartoons. Early 2000s. Hey Arnold, Doug, Wild Thornberries, Lindsay Lohan still being sane... Those were the days :)
And the music!!!!! Britney, The Backstreet Boys, Aaron Carter, NSYNC, Dream Street...
In case u didn't notice, I'm kind of missing my early childhood today :(
I'm SO SICK of hearing about Justin Beiber and how annoying he is every ten seconds!!! If you don't like him, don't listen to him!!!!! And has anyone else noticed that disney channel has gotten all dramatic nowadays??? Nick is still ok thank goodness, but it used to be amazing!!!!!!!!! They played "Sabrina the teenage witch" sometimes, and they had "the amanda show"... I miss those days! Ahhhhh!!!!
I wish I could like set my tv to only play those shows... well and icarly :)
okay so they still play "sabrina the teenage witch" and i can watch the cartoons on youtube or whatever... and they sometimes play the lindsey lohan movies from back before she went totally nuts on disney (freaky friday, confessions of a teenage drama queen...) and i can get the songs on itunes... and im on a search for the same britney spears cd i had when i was 7 that my friend stole and scratched up...
But its not the same!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now im watching reruns of "Zoey 101" (early 2000s not 90s i know, but whatevs, still good) and wondering whatever happened to jaime lynn spears. i know she had a baby at like 16 or something, but where is she now??? how is her baby?? I think im gonna google her...
Okay, so heres something weird: we all know she got preggers like super young, right? well apparently there was a huge controversy over it because she was 2 years below the age of consent in california... but the weird part is she was neither from california nor living there. whatevs.
So apparently they had their baby, she and her fiance broke up last march, but they got back together this august.
Well that was a terrific waste of time.
I also googled te chick who did the voice of kim possible, cuz i havent seen her in anything for a while. she does broadway shows now.
im going to go do something else now.

Friday, September 10, 2010

I like Eminem :)

I just found out that one of my friends hates Eminem :O I cannot believe it. Eminem is AMAZING!
Anyways, I didn't make the improv show :( Sad,but whatever. There were a ton of really good people auditioning. There's always next year... *sigh*
On a happier note, I have decided that at my wedding I'm using Ring Pops instead of actual rings :)
So I'm pretty much just babbling. This has been a pretty insane day-started out super happy, then super sad, then super confusing, then super happy again, then normal for a while, then I got sad again, then I got happy again, and now I'm too tired to experience any emotions at all :P
Kind of reminds me of a kaleidoscope :)
Wowwww I'm tired :P
And yet I have no desire to go to sleep...
Strange....
This is a pointless post :P I'm done now.
Oh wait! As of an hour and a half ago, it is the 9 year anniversary of 9/11. So my question to all of you is: what were you doing when you heard about 9/11? Here's what I was doing:
I was in first grade,in the classroom. I happened to be in the bathroom at the time when our teacher told us, and I just got back at the end of her little speech, as she was saying "...so a lot of people got hurt. I just thought you all should know." I thought there had been a fight on the playground or something. I had no clue what she was talking about. Then when my babysitter picked me up later, she wouldn't let me listen to Radio Disney in the car (ahh remember listening to Radio Disney as a kid? good times :D) because she wanted to listen to the news (she was FREAKING OUT!) Then when we got to her house, she wouldn't let me watch cartoons either cuz she wanted to watch the news. That's where I saw them playing the planes crashing into the buildings on her gigantic TV (It actually wasn't that big... I was only 6 at the time though so it seemed huge) They played it like 500 times before my babysitters daughters friend finally was like "oh, didn't you know? Those planes crashed into some important buildings and people are freaking out over it."

As I was typing the answer to this question, a new question popped into my head-What were you doing when you found out that Michael Jackson died????? I was at my grandmas house alone (she was at work) and I had just woken up from a nap. The sunlight was shining through the windows in a really psychadelic way, and it reflected off the white walls making the whole house look super bright and happy. It was like I was in a fairy tale or something, and I was kind of disoriented from having just woken up. Then I wandered into the living room, and the news was playing (I have no clue why-I don't even watch the news!) and the chick on the news was like "this just in-Michael Jackson died of cardiac arrest earlier today" or something like that. I totally thought I was dreaming, and since I was still half asleep, I called my mom at work and I asked "Mom, is Michael Jackson dead?" And she was like "Yeah! I just heard that on the radio!" This is how I knew I wasn't dreaming,because a.) my mom is hardly ever in my dreams, b.) on the rare occasions when she is, her voice is either really high-pitched or really low-pitched, and c.) Phones never work in my dreams. I don't even think they exist... but texting and facebook does. I wonder what a psychoanalyst would say about this?
Then, confirming the fact that I wasn't dreaming, my grandma came home right after I hung up with my mom, and she was like "Ezra!!! Did you hear about Michael Jackson?" So... yeah.

If you took the time to read this super-long post... *applauds*. I thank you for your patience :)
Gotta go to sleep. It's almost 2 in the morning, and in 12 hours I'm supposed to go shopping for pirate day with some of my friends. I'm so tired that I had to delete and re-type the word "friends" in that last sentence 4 times because I kept misspelling it. Good night blog readers!
-Ezi :)

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Forget education!!!! >:P

Ughhhhh. I'm really hating education right now :P
So here's the story: my mom is in college, and normally she's pretty much awesome, but when she's in school she goes totally INSANE. Example from earlier today:

Mom: why aren't you doing your homework?????????
Me: I don't have any homework.
Mom: No way. You're totally lying. Tell me the truth!
*pause button* I really didn't have any homework. But, of course, I knew she would react like this, so I seriously considered making up a fake assignment and saying something like "oh yeah I have to write a ransom note for forensic science and I need to google something about WWI for history..." but then the little voice in my head went "That's dumb. Just tell her the truth. You don't know that she'll react like that." Sorry, Little Voice, you've been proven wrong once again! Who's ever heard of a kid lying and saying that they do have homework when they don't?!?
But here's why I'm truly pissed at school. Not my school, of course. I love my school, more than most people love their schools. I'm mad at my sister's middle school and my mom's college.
So my sister was having trouble with something extremely simple. I tried explaining it to her a few times, but I'm a horrible teacher, and I couldn't really think of another way to explain it besides the way I'd already been explaining it. So my mom is like "Oh, don't worry about it Ezra. I'll help her as soon as I'm done with this problem." So I go back to what I was doing (listening to music and reading MLIA :D ) when like 5 minutes later she taps me on the shoulder and is all "God! Why can't you help your sister with her math while I'm trying to learn something???? Just explain one simple thing to her. How is that so hard??"... blah blah blah. So I say "Well, one reason is because I'm a horrible teacher. And I couldn't think of any other way to explain it to her. And--" "*scoff/eye roll Whatever Ezra." and she goes back to helping my sister. I'm just like "Um, hello?!?! Have you gone mental?!?!?" Grrr. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Okay, I'm done ranting now.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Oh my God!!!!!!!! I love Josh!!!!!!!

^Clueless reference. I know Jude R. will get it. :)
So... what to blog about?
Hmmm...
So I complained to the manager of the comic book store that his employee is a sexist jerkface... and he laughed at me too XP So I go to the used comic store instead. Cheaper and friendlier people. Unfortunately, it's attached to the other store, so I have to walk through there to get to it. And now every time the two of them see me, they laugh. Ugh, I hate being made fun of.
On the brighter side, I haven't bitten my nails in 3 days :) this is my third time quitting.
First time I quit: I quit for about three weeks, then I started middle school and that was the end of that.
Second time I quit: Quit for a month and a half!!! I was actually having to cut them and everything... then my friend died, and it happened to be finals week. Of course it didn't last.
And now I'm quitting again. Hopefully. I got that freakish nail polish that gets super hard when it dries, so if I keep wearing it, I should be able to make it last a while :)
im so tired. im goin to bed. goodnight!!!!!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

"they took the credit for you second symphony, re-written by machine on new technology..."

Fun Fact: that was the first music video ever played on MTV. For those of you who don't know, it's a line from "video killed the radio star". Great song. It's on my playlist.

So, who wants to hear about my day?

I woke up in the morning, feeling nothing like P. Diddy. Lent the car to my aunt, so I had to walk to the bus stop... in the rain :P But I got to wear the rain coat that makes me look like the girl on the salt container, so that was good :)
I got on the bus and talk to my friend with big fluffy hair about music and cartoons and fluffy hair and blues clues (wait, blues clues was yesterday) and repetitiveness, and other stuffs :) oh and i actually learned something about meteorology... but now I don't remember it :P
So I get to school and drink 4 cups of black coffee with like 3 sugars each. Badddddddddddddddd idea. 'Cuz after acting (which is where I drank the coffee) I had Biology, and my friend Hanthon thought I was going insane cuz I was so freaking hyper ahaha XP and then he wouldn't let me use the chemicals we were working with :(
So then it was lunch time. Depressing cuz our lunch lady man is gone :( But fun cuz I found out when Sparkle Day is this year :)
Next was History. I had to sing my song XP that was SCARYYYY!!!!!!! But Tommy came with me and protected me with his magical vegetarian powers so that made it better :)
God, I wish I had vegan powers XP but I think I'd die without cheese, so that probably won't happen. But I've acquired a taste for black coffee, which I also thought would never happen, so who knows?
So then I had forensic science. With Will. Right after I sang my song, I experienced the inevitable Caffeine Crash, and Will is... Will, so we were both super tired and loopy. I ended up drawing a picture of a hooker, and Will ended up eating it XD Oh how I love weird people... because I am a weird person I suppose.
So I went home, stopped at comic store, got laughed out of it for being a teenage girl, so went to the used comic book store. Less options, but the people are much friendlier.
In the 5 minutes I was at the comic store, my mom searched all of Minneapolis for me, skipping over the most obvious place to look for me. :P Wow, mom.
Then I watched the breakfast club with my sister Waffle. And now I have to go. Bye blog readers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-Ezi :)